A child speaks into total darkness: âThis is my voice.â Clear articulation, delivery just slightly hurried. As we descend in a huddle through the auditorium of the Linbury theatre, other voices â older, more obviously gendered â speak the same refrain. Some sound confident (âthis is my voiceâ, trumpets one), others less so. Some overlap, speaking almost in chorus. All are unmistakably individual.
Three scrims hang in the main performance space. âWhat does it mean to have a voice?â The question appears silently, white type on black fabric. âAnd what does it mean to lose it?â In the week that Google has released Gemini Live, an AI voice assistant that allows users to have ânatural conversationsâ with its chatbot, and months after Afghan women responded to the Taliban outlawing female voices in public by posting videos of themselves singing, such issues are critical. But in a space that often rings with the sound of highly trained operatic voices, audience chatter and critical opinion, the questions posed by The Sound Voice Projectâs immersive installation are unusually self-conscious.
Answers take the form of three short videos, each featuring people who have experienced voice loss. In âPaulâ, two men, both dressed in a white shirt and black trousers, stand and look directly at the camera. The âdual ariaâ they perform is like nothing Iâve ever heard. Baritone Roderick Williams sings the long, expressive lines of Hannah Conwayâs score accompanied by the majestic stride of piano chords as he urges us to âlisten carefully, I will whisper. Let me sing to you in your dreams.â But entwined with his operatic voice is that of Paul Jameson, who was diagnosed with motor neurone disease in 2017. Jamesonâs delivery is slow and careful, some consonants out of reach. âThis is my voiceâ, Williams sings, âand it sounds to meâ â âlike my life and soulâ, Jameson adds, enunciating with effort written across his face.
Jameson now speaks with an artificial voice, based on a recording made of his own some years ago. âMy recreated voice is a good likenessâ, he told a rapt audience at an Insights event after the first London screening, âbut I promise it was not this dull and monotone. Some will probably disagree â¦â He gets a good laugh. But as he explains, âWhen you lose your voice, it takes away more than just your ability to communicate. You also lose part of your identity, personality and persona.â
Tanja Bage had only a week to prepare for that loss when she was diagnosed with a rare form of laryngeal cancer and told a total laryngectomy was her only option. âTanjaâ opens with a video Bage made during that week for her two small children, explaining what was happening. âIt makes me sad because youâre so little ⦠and you probably wonât remember what Mummyâs voice sounded like,â she says, smiling weakly. She reassures them sheâll still be able to read them stories, sing with them, make silly noises. Her voice is a warm mezzo, her accent softly Liverpudlian.
Conwayâs score puts Bage in duet with soprano Lucy Crowe. Once again, the combination is almost unbearably poignant. But here itâs Bageâs ânewâ voice â expressed as she touches the speaking valve in her neck â that provides consolation, insisting âIâm OKâ in response to Croweâs painfully melodic pleas: âTake anything, but please not my voice!â
Such is the intimate connection between voice and identity, the very notion of voice loss is a deeply emotive one. This installation is not light entertainment â but itâs also hopeful. Bage is a member of the Shout at Cancer choir that features in the installationâs third video I Left My Voice Behind. Its members have all experienced voice loss; their vocal tone is gritty, even slightly harsh, in speaking and singing alike. In Conwayâs score, their rhythmic delivery counterpoints with two cellos. One plays a scrap of the opening of Elgarâs Cello Concerto, only for it to dissolve into pizzicato, Elgarâs music forgotten. Later, a âdigital choirâ of their own so-called natural voices is synthesised with unabashed artificiality, injecting the brash vocoder sound of late-20th-century pop.
What is a ânaturalâ voice, anyway, in an age increasingly obsessed by AI? Even that is nothing new: Wolfgang von Kempelen completed his first experiments with âspeaking machinesâ well over 200 years ago. Yet thereâs no denying our continued reliance on â and attachment to â our voices. âLosing my natural voice is one of the hardest things Iâve ever been through,â Bage told a Radio 4 documentary. âIâve grieved it. I still grieve it.â